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pin-spiration 32: fearfully & wonderfully made.

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I don't talk much here on the blog about my struggle with weight and body image. I don't think it's something that I am really prepared to write about, or even want to write about. I've tried it before, and it didn't quite pan out. It's not a new concept, nor is it something that is completely unique to me. Unfortunately, most women struggle with those two issues in some way or another. I thought, back when I first began My Beautiful Brooke, that I would write about these things...that I would take my readers (who didn't exist, not one, back then) on the journey with me toward weight loss and my ideal body.

But, as many half-hearted goals do, my plans waned and my weight loss roller-coastered some more. I didn't think my plans were half-hearted...back then. I didn't think that I would "fail" so miserably at achieving my goals. But I wasn't drawing motivation from the right places. Even though I spoke the words and wrote them out here I still don't think I had fully jumped in. Honestly, I still don't think I'm there...and not because I'm no where near my weight goals... but because my spirit is insecure. I don't believe that I've been able to wrap my mind around the fact that I am BEAUTIFUL despite my many flaws...the physical and psychological, the emotional and irrational... despite them all.

I am beautiful in God's eyes. 
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
God has said so. He loves me as if I am perfect in every way.
Isn't that amazing? Isn't that such a blessing?

Lately... I feel like a film is being lifted from my eyes, layer by layer. And I feel like it's letting me draw closer and closer to a place where I can be satisfied with myself, where I can love myself...regardless of what my belly looks like or if my back fat shows through my shirt. In that place, I can accept myself and everything that makes me who I am...imperfections and all...as someone who God loves and created unique and to his liking.

I'm not exactly "where I want to be outwardly" but I'm becoming more and more ok with who I am each day.
I still want to be healthy and strong and fit...but I am trying not to beat myself up for not getting there every time I try. I do think that a healthy mind is one of the most important elements in maintaining a healthy body.
God's reminder of my creation and his grace are bringing me into that healthy mind set. And it is definitely where I want to be.

When I began today's Pin-spiration, I intended on posting pins of projects that I wanted to create for my new home up in Maryland. The plank art is definitely something that I'm going to make (and have actually already half-way finished, save the lettering.) But when I read the verse on the wood in that photo, and let it roll around in my head for a minute...these words just started pouring out. Focusing on this was right today. I think it's right every day.

I do draw inspiration from Pinterest for my projects, for my meals, for my creative brain...
but my spirit draws inspiration from Jesus. It is by him that I am Covered in Grace.

Alrighty, now it's your turn. Pin-spire me! 

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pin-spiration 4.

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So, today's pin-spiration is a sort of triple-whammy.
When I got this week's writers prompt from Mama Kat I immediately gravitated toward 
# 2.  Are you on Pinterest? Share the last five items you pinned, choose one and let it inspire a blog post.
It was perfect. I was going to be doing my Pinning Bloggers post anyways...

But then I read on and saw
# 5. The one place in my life that I know better, but haven't been able to do better is... (inspired by Oprah).
I thought... well that is something to write about! 
And then- I went into my pins and saw that within my last five, there were three that perfectly fit into #5's prompt.
So  here goes nothin'...

Numero Uno-  the Neuschwanstein Castle in Germany 
I never got to visit this one while I lived in Germany for three years. 
But I miss that beautiful country oh-so much. It did, and always will, feel like home.












Numero Dos-  CA-ute!
I just love this look. It's so simple and me...
Especially the boots! You should see all my pins of boots.
I want to be able to just throw something like this on and feel good
...part of #5's prompt... read on!










Source: polyvore.com via Brooke on Pinterest




Numero Tres-  Strengthen stuff.
...part of #5's prompt... read on! 










Source: glamour.com via Brooke on Pinterest




Numero Cuatro-  for seriously yo!













Numero Cinco-  
...part of #5's prompt... read on!









Source: tumblr.com via Brooke on Pinterest




So what do I know better that I haven't been able to do better?

It's the taking care of my body area. 
(Pins dos, tres & cinco.) 
It's the taking care of my heart, my mind, my soul, my self esteem.
I, like so many, many other women, have been on this dreadful roller coaster for far too long. It's on a loop. And I can't seem to get off. 
Except that... I know how to do it. And I want to do it.
Furthermore, I know how to take care of all of those things that I so desire to take care of.
And I know that I don't even have to take the reigns to do it. 
I know that if I faithfully look to God for guidance and rest and wisdom and peace... I will find it. I have the tools at my disposal to win this battle. 

So why haven't I been able to conquer this? 
I think it is probably because I have not 100% completely and truly given this battle over to God to fight. 
Some people seem to be able to just lose weight so effortlessly... to achieve a comfortable image of themselves without the struggles I tend to have. 
But that's just it... it probably only SEEMS that way. 
And because I KNOW how to win this battle... because I have the KING OF ALL KINGS on my side to help me, to give me that peace, 
I should be able to do it...  
No... I  can do it. 
NO... GOD can. 

Where I need to be is in prayer.
My exercises need to start down on my knees. 

It is the most effective battle stance anyone can ever take.


More of this HERE.



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