I don’t talk much here on the blog about my struggle with weight and body image. I don’t think it’s something that I am really prepared to write about, or even want to write about. I’ve tried it before, and it didn’t quite pan out. It’s not a new concept, nor is it something that is completely unique to me. Unfortunately, most women struggle with those two issues in some way or another. I thought, back when I first began My Beautiful Brooke, that I would write about these things…that I would take my readers (who didn’t exist, not one, back then) on the journey with me toward weight loss and my ideal body.
But, as many half-hearted goals do, my plans waned and my weight loss roller-coastered some more. I didn’t think my plans were half-hearted…back then. I didn’t think that I would “fail” so miserably at achieving my goals. But I wasn’t drawing motivation from the right places. Even though I spoke the words and wrote them out here I still don’t think I had fully jumped in. Honestly, I still don’t think I’m there…and not because I’m no where near my weight goals… but because my spirit is insecure. I don’t believe that I’ve been able to wrap my mind around the fact that I am BEAUTIFUL despite my many flaws…the physical and psychological, the emotional and irrational… despite them all.
I am beautiful in God’s eyes.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
God has said so. He loves me as if I am perfect in every way.
Isn’t that amazing? Isn’t that such a blessing?
Lately… I feel like a film is being lifted from my eyes, layer by layer. And I feel like it’s letting me draw closer and closer to a place where I can be satisfied with myself, where I can love myself…regardless of what my belly looks like or if my back fat shows through my shirt. In that place, I can accept myself and everything that makes me who I am…imperfections and all…as someone who God loves and created unique and to his liking.
I’m not exactly “where I want to be outwardly” but I’m becoming more and more ok with who I am each day.
I still want to be healthy and strong and fit…but I am trying not to beat myself up for not getting there every time I try. I do think that a healthy mind is one of the most important elements in maintaining a healthy body.
God’s reminder of my creation and his grace are bringing me into that healthy mind set. And it is definitely where I want to be.
When I began today’s Pin-spiration, I intended on posting pins of projects that I wanted to create for my new home up in Maryland. The plank art is definitely something that I’m going to make (and have actually already half-way finished, save the lettering.) But when I read the verse on the wood in that photo, and let it roll around in my head for a minute…these words just started pouring out. Focusing on this was right today. I think it’s right every day.
I do draw inspiration from Pinterest for my projects, for my meals, for my creative brain…
but my spirit draws inspiration from Jesus. It is by him that I am Covered in Grace.
Alrighty, now it’s your turn. Pin-spire me!
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